Chapter 2 – I’m not gay!!! Jonghyun never felt so taken aback, so perplexed like this before.
First he sees himself kissing his bestfriend, then he sees Key’s sexual face, something that he had never thought to see, then Key freaks out and breaks the flat screen to shreds.
“I kissed him.” It was the first thing that came from his lips five minutes after Key’s violent performance.
“You grabbed his ass.” Minho pointed out quietly, just as shocked.
“I saw tongue.” Taemin whispered in a horrified voice, his eyes wide open.
“You kissed his neck...” Onew pointed a finger at Jonghyun.
“I saw tongue.” Taemin whispered again.
“You sucked on it too.” Minho nodded, his mouth still opened.
“I saw tongue.” Taemin whispered once more.
“I think we already got it Taemin.” Onew petted the maknae’s head.
“Oh my god, I saw tongue.” Taemin repeated, his eyes never blinking.
“Great. We broke Taemin’s brain. Now what?” Minho grumbled in frustration.
Jonghyun took a deep breath. He never thought that he could act like that when he got drunk. Well, this was his first time getting so pissed drunk too, normally he could remember things. But…this time…things got really out of control.
The way Key looked in the video…and himself too…! They looked like lovers…!
Oh no…Key would never forgive him…but it wasn’t his fault either, right? He was drunk too!
“Taemin…can you go to Key and check if he’s okay?” Jonghyun asked to the blonde boy.
“Yes appa.” Taemin got up in a robotic move, walking away slowly. “Taemin will check on umma. Taemin can do that. Taemin is a good boy…”
The three boys stared at the maknae in silence until the boy disappeared from their eyesight.
“He called me appa.” Jonghyun said in a worried voice.
“He sure did.” Onew commented, slowly approaching Minho for protection. He looked quite scared too.
“We broke his brain.” Jonghyun established, burring his head on his hands.
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His brain wasn’t broken. Yet.
But he sure was too shocked to think in something else. Taemin looked at Key’s door and sighed. He felt like he had to help in some way. His friend needed comfort. “Hyung?”
…
Taemin knocked and tried once more. “Hyung?”
“Go away…”
The blonde boy pouted. Key never told him that before. He would always let him in! “Key hyung, please…! Open the door!”
“I want to be alone.” Key’s voice sounded somewhat depressed. The maknae frowned. His umma was stronger than this!
“Key!” Taemin half-shouted in a warning voice.
There was a long silence before Key’s voice could be heard again. “Are…are you alone?”
“Yes.” Taemin smiled as the door opened for him. His umma couldn’t resist him.
The lead dancer walked inside and met a red eyed Key, his cheeks puffy from all the crying. He wondered if it was crying of shame or regret. Maybe both.
They said nothing, they just hugged each other, letting Key sob on his shoulder. He didn’t need any words to state the obvious. Key was devastated.
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“I’m not even gay.” Jonghyun grumbled, hands rubbing his head furiously. “I don’t understand!”
Minho made a face, looking at Onew. “Key isn’t gay either, is he?”
“I don’t think so, he’s just picky.” The leader replied, rubbing Jonghyun’s shoulder, trying to calm down his friend.
“Why did I do that? Why him? Why not just any girl?” Jonghyun babbled. “I never looked at any guy before! It’s just gross! A male body is….geez, a male body!”
Onew raised his eyebrows. “Was it the outfit?”
“I hate cats.” Jonghyun waved his head negatively.
“You said you liked them on the video.” Minho pointed out.
“I was drunk.” The lead singer groaned.
“No, you were horny. There’s a difference.” Onew chuckled, a laugher staring to escape his lips.
Jonghyun gasped. “What? I wasn’t ho-”
“You were hyung. We could see it.” Minho smirked, his hands making a sign to his own pants, mimicking a bulge.
Onew burst out laughing, small tears running down his face. Minho joined in, leaning on the older boy for support.
“Yes, very, very funny! Ah. Ah. I’m really amused.” Jonghyun replied sarcastically, his cheeks slowly gaining color as his friends laughed at him. “Why are you even okay with all this?! Shouldn’t you be upset? What kind of people are you?”
“We’re the kind of people that felt this coming sooner or later.” Minho giggled at Jonghyun’s shocked expression.
This only made Onew laugh louder, hands on his stomach.
Jonghyun blushed hard and hid his face on his hands again. “Oh god, kill me now…”
Onew stopped laughing, trying to control himself and pointed to the main hall. “It won’t be god, but it will be someone as almighty.”
“Wha-”
“Kim Jonghyun.” A familiar voice made the lead singer jump out of his bones in fright.
Slowly, the muscular boy turned around to meet Key and Taemin, staring at them.
Minho put a hand on Onew’s mouth preventing him from any possible giggle. That boy when started laughing needed half an hour to calm down.
“Y-yes?” Jonghyun felt his voice fail him as he looked into Key’s serious eyes.
Minho felt Onew trying to laugh again and pulled him closer, his hand pressing firmly against the other’s mouth. Taemin eyed them in a warning glare. This was no time for jokes or laugher.
“Burn it. Destroy that tape. I’m going out with Tae for shopping. I don’t want to see that tape when I’m back home. Got it?” Key asked in a low, spine-tingling voice, his eyes burning holes on his bestfriend.
“Yes.” Jonghyun’s voice came out as a frightened squeak. He blushed and tried again. “Yes.”
“Good.” Key pulled Taemin’s arm and both boys left the apartment.
Silence filled the living room and Minho released their leader, who gasped for air.
“He looked pissed off.” Onew murmured, crossing his legs.
The other two friends stared stupidly at the older male. “No shit.”
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A week passed by.
Key kept on avoiding him, only talking to him when it was about work or really necessary. It got pretty awkward between them in interviews and mini concerts they were giving, and the band was feeling that, he knew they were, by the looks he got from them.
Last night they had a small performance; it was meant to be a nice, without dancing performance. When he sat next to Key, the younger boy only moved away from him, pulling his chair away. It made him incredibly sad but he couldn’t blame his friend. Sometimes he got pretty uncomfortable too.
Jonghyun sighed and looked at the ceiling, thinking.
The watch marked 10p.m already and the boys should be out for a while. They had tight schedules today, Teamin had a show to go to with Onew, Minho was filming and Key had a photo-shoot. Only Jonghyun stayed at home, enjoying his free day.
He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
He hadn’t destroyed the tape.
Key would scratch his skin off if he ever found out. He knew he should have destroyed it but…he wanted, no, he
needed to watch it again.
His curiosity was killing him, he knew that the tape wasn’t over, there was more and he wanted to see the rest of it.
When the free day was announced, he thought that it was his chance to peek. Instead, he had spent the whole day gaining courage to go to his room and take out that small tape out of his closet.
Pressing his lips together in self-confidence, the lead singer got out of the couch and left to his room.
He stared at the closet. That thing was in there. Right there. So close.
Slowly, Jonghyun opened the closet and grabbed an old, messy t-shirt. Inside of it was the tape, and he grabbed it, glaring at it. That night was recorded in there. It sounded so simple…just pick the camera and watch it…
But it seemed so difficult to do!
After a while, Jonghyun sat on his bed and pressed play.
The video started all over again and he bit his lip, pressing another button to make it move forward.
There.
“I thought you didn’t like cats…!” Key’s voice came from the camera.
He stared at the boy on his lap, dressed in black leader, small streaks of white skin shown underneath on his torso. He was so skinny, he should eat more. He looked how easily he could wrap his arms on the other’s small waist.
“What are you taking about? I loveee cats.” He heard himself say. His voice sounded so weird…so goddamned low. He was looking at Key with such unusual eyes too…
What made him choose Key? He knew he could have just any girl! Key could be a bit girly, yes, but he had known him for so long, he knew Key could be as masculine as he wanted too.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah...”Jonghyun shivered when he saw himself press his lips against the bow-shaped ones. He had to admit, Key had really good-looking lips.
Wait what…?! The muscular boy shook his head and kept staring at the video, his heart bumping loudly on his chest. He felt so nervous. He felt like a kid who was about to get scolded if he was found with that forbidden cookie on his hands.
He licked his lips when he saw his own hands squeeze Key’s petite ass. He looked like he was enjoying grabbing it… was it…soft?
Jonghyun blushed at the thought. No, no, no. Key was a boy! It probably felt bony!
It looked soft though…
“Shit Key…”He knew he was blushing so badly right now. Minho was right; he had a big bulge on his pants in the video. And Key was moving his hips against it too, making him groan and suck Key’s neck harder.
There was no way he didn’t leave any hickeys after that. He was probably covered in them.
Jonghyun was having trouble in looking away. He was gripping Key’s ass and pressing his lower body against the youngest, rubbing in a slow pace.
Dongho was filming this at the time right? He sure was enjoying it, because he kept zooming the camera from their kissing mouths to their exploring hands on each other’s bodies. That perverted maknae…
“Ah! Fuck! Jjong…!” Key gasped on screen.
“I want you…” Jonghyun had said, leaning to kiss Key again.
Oh sweet Jesus, they had kissed a lot… he looked…addicted.
His eyes looked dilated and foggy, consumed with desire. It was strange watching himself making out, it was strange to look at his own eyes filled with lust, it was strange listening to his own voice when it was so husky.
“You’re mine right?” “Yes..! Ah!” Key on screen gasped and jolted, pressing his thin body against the other’s.
Jonghyun paled and replayed the scene.
“You’re mine right?” He said again.
“Yes…! Ah!” There! He paused the camera and stared in shock as he saw his hand slip from Key’s neck to…a very private area. That was the reason of Key’s loud moan.
His eyes widened to the size of golf balls.
He touched Key…
Worse! He touched Key in public. And there was a tape to prove it!!!
This tape really needed to disappear! His band could get kicked out if someone discovered this! But…
“Wasn’t Jonghyun home?” Onew’s voice was heard from the hallway.
Oh shit!!! They were home already?!
Jonghyun jumped out of the bed and opened the closet, quickly hiding the camera inside it.
They couldn’t know he still had it!
Trying to look cool, Jonghyun grabbed a book and sat on his desk.
The door opened. “Ah, here he is.” Taemin entered the room and Onew followed.
“How was the show?” Jonghyun asked with a smile.
“It was…okay…” Taemin replied, staring at Jonghyun with his eyebrows raised.
Onew was gaping at him too.
“Yes?” Jonghyun blinked in confusion. Did they know something?! He didn’t leave any proof of the camera, he was sure of it!
“Hyung… you’re reading a book upside down…” Taemin said blushing, and looked away quickly.
Oh.Onew nodded and pointed down. “And you’re having a problem…”
Double Oh.Jonghyun froze and looked down.
Oh hello there Dino Junior.
…
WHAT ARE YOU DOING UP SO EARLY?!??! WITHOUT PERMISSION EVEN!
Jonghyun kept silent while he was having a mental fight with himself. He… he got hard over the video? No, that wasn’t possible. It couldn’t be possible. He wasn’t gay!!! He didn’t like boys! Boys were gross! He. Wasn’t. Gay.
“I’m not gay!”
Onew eyed him like he was a crazy person.
“I said that out loud, didn’t I?” Jonghyun bit his lip.
Onew sighed and nodded.
“Is anyone home?!” key’s voice came from the hallway. “Taemin?”
Jonghyun grabbed a pillow and pressed it against his crotch. Taemin rolled his eyes and walked away. “I’m here umma!”
Onew made a face and closed the door.
Jonghyun gave him his best innocent eyes.
Onew smiled.
Jonghyun gulped.
“You still have it don’t you?”
Jonghyun felt the blood leave his face. Shit. “I…no?”
“It’s on the closet isn’t it?” Onew walked to the furniture and opened it.
“Stop! Wait!” Jonghyun stood up quickly, trying to stop the leader.
Onew sighed and grabbed the camera that was exposed inside the closet. “If you want to keep it, then hide it in a less obvious place. Key cleans our clothes, what would he do if he came to grab something from here huh? It’s your own grave you’re digging.”
Jonghyun gaped at his friend. “You’re not going to tell him?”
The older boy shook his head. “No, but be careful. Don’t forget that we can’t have any more fights, we’re idols.” He said in a serious voice.
“I know…I’m sorry hyung.”
Onew looked down and groaned, putting his hands on his face. “Just go take a shower and…take care of that for god’s sake.”
The leader left the room, leaving a very embarrassed Jonghyun behind.
“I’m not gay!”
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ta~da!
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